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Mary Poppins came into my life
Because she floated daily
Into our loungeroom
The VHS watched and rewound and re-watched
So endlessly
That the tape eventually died
There has always been Number 17 Cherry Tree Lane
The toys have always flown into their cupboards with a click
Julie Andrews has always been Mary Poppins
Years later
On an excursion for Writing History
A pre-honours class in research and writing
The librarian at the State Library has pulled out a stack of papers
Random examples of the items held there
The letters of P.L. Travers
Did you know that the author of the Mary Poppins books,
Upon which the movie was based,
Was an Australian?
That there were disagreements between the
original author and Disney
(Corporation betraying the
Writer)
Graduation, a world trip, heart break, meditation, later
I was running in a park
And found a statue of Mary Poppins
(Unveiled by my aunt!)
To commemorate that P.L. Travers had lived in Sydney
Just a few blocks from my house
Another time
Listening to Mornings with Margaret
A fascinating interview with Valerie Lawson
About the biography she has written
The thought, “I must read that”
Filed away and forgotten
Later, in London
Wandering through the library
And Valerie Lawson’s Mary Poppins She Wrote
Sitting there on the shelf
And from the woods of Virginia I read
P.L. Travers
Never identified as Australian
Had left and, but for one short visit, never returned
Felt New York was her spiritual home
Hated the movie
Never found love
Never found peace
Was eternally searching
Knowing the postscript is delicious
And heart-breaking
And joyous
Where do I fit?
I’m no P.L. Travers
I haven’t even been published yet
And yet something stirs
Identifies
And today,
The sky is blue.
The end.
Because she floated daily
Into our loungeroom
The VHS watched and rewound and re-watched
So endlessly
That the tape eventually died
There has always been Number 17 Cherry Tree Lane
The toys have always flown into their cupboards with a click
Julie Andrews has always been Mary Poppins
Years later
On an excursion for Writing History
A pre-honours class in research and writing
The librarian at the State Library has pulled out a stack of papers
Random examples of the items held there
The letters of P.L. Travers
Did you know that the author of the Mary Poppins books,
Upon which the movie was based,
Was an Australian?
That there were disagreements between the
original author and Disney
(Corporation betraying the
Writer)
Graduation, a world trip, heart break, meditation, later
I was running in a park
And found a statue of Mary Poppins
(Unveiled by my aunt!)
To commemorate that P.L. Travers had lived in Sydney
Just a few blocks from my house
Another time
Listening to Mornings with Margaret
A fascinating interview with Valerie Lawson
About the biography she has written
The thought, “I must read that”
Filed away and forgotten
Later, in London
Wandering through the library
And Valerie Lawson’s Mary Poppins She Wrote
Sitting there on the shelf
And from the woods of Virginia I read
P.L. Travers
Never identified as Australian
Had left and, but for one short visit, never returned
Felt New York was her spiritual home
Hated the movie
Never found love
Never found peace
Was eternally searching
Knowing the postscript is delicious
And heart-breaking
And joyous
Where do I fit?
I’m no P.L. Travers
I haven’t even been published yet
And yet something stirs
Identifies
And today,
The sky is blue.
The end.
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Sitting in my robes in Royal Festival Hall
Graduating with a Masters
I feel like I'm six years old playing make believe
The robe keeps slipping off my shoulders
The ridiculous hat keeps sliding down my forehead
It doesn't feel real
This past year. I still can't quite put it into words.
I thought that with my Masters
I would be amazing,
But I still don't feel like I am.
I still can't belt an E
I have worse stage fright now than when I started
I want to be brilliant yesterday
I want to be wonderful super fantastic coolness remarkable
Right now!
What does it mean exactly to "have potential"?
What do they see that I, still, after all this, can't access?
What do I want to be when I grow up?
I want to be Mary Poppins and Maureen Johnson and Miss Honey
I want to sing and dance and act and write
What I really want is to play roles I've written myself
Perform my own material
I want to travel
I want own my own house
I want to live in the same continent as my love
I want to sing and be able to write good music
I want the praise of my superiors and my cohort
I want to feel accepted
I want to be happy within myself and proud of my own achievements
What do you do with a BA in English (/History)?
You travel the world
You fall in love
You have visions of living in happily married bliss on the leafy north shore
And you have your heart broken
And you re-assess
And you say "fuck it".
And you leave everything you know and move to a whole other country
Where everything is the same but different
And you deny that you're experiencing culture shock because you are already
Widely Traveled and Older than the average student
And have Life Experience
But really, you're still young
You're still at the beginning
Even though actually you're already part of the way
And actually,
No one knows what is next
No idea.
It's what makes people scared, greedy, snide, arrogant
Everything
Because none of us knows what is next
Yes we can dream, we can plan,
VITAL!
But actually, we have no idea
It doesn't scare me
(actually it does,
but, in this moment, it's liberating)
I can do whatever I choose.
The Principal of the School at Graduation
Do something every day that
scares you
Today, again, I choose to blaze a trail of my own
To remember to stop looking around me and totally freaking out that the other peoples paths look better or different to mine
In the words of Elle Woods
I've got to find my way
In the words of Sondheim
It's our time, breathe it in, worlds to change and worlds to win
What do you do with a BA in English (/History)?
You get an MA in Music Theatre,
You take a deep breath
And -
Graduating with a Masters
I feel like I'm six years old playing make believe
The robe keeps slipping off my shoulders
The ridiculous hat keeps sliding down my forehead
It doesn't feel real
This past year. I still can't quite put it into words.
I thought that with my Masters
I would be amazing,
But I still don't feel like I am.
I still can't belt an E
I have worse stage fright now than when I started
I want to be brilliant yesterday
I want to be wonderful super fantastic coolness remarkable
Right now!
What does it mean exactly to "have potential"?
What do they see that I, still, after all this, can't access?
What do I want to be when I grow up?
I want to be Mary Poppins and Maureen Johnson and Miss Honey
I want to sing and dance and act and write
What I really want is to play roles I've written myself
Perform my own material
I want to travel
I want own my own house
I want to live in the same continent as my love
I want to sing and be able to write good music
I want the praise of my superiors and my cohort
I want to feel accepted
I want to be happy within myself and proud of my own achievements
What do you do with a BA in English (/History)?
You travel the world
You fall in love
You have visions of living in happily married bliss on the leafy north shore
And you have your heart broken
And you re-assess
And you say "fuck it".
And you leave everything you know and move to a whole other country
Where everything is the same but different
And you deny that you're experiencing culture shock because you are already
Widely Traveled and Older than the average student
And have Life Experience
But really, you're still young
You're still at the beginning
Even though actually you're already part of the way
And actually,
No one knows what is next
No idea.
It's what makes people scared, greedy, snide, arrogant
Everything
Because none of us knows what is next
Yes we can dream, we can plan,
VITAL!
But actually, we have no idea
It doesn't scare me
(actually it does,
but, in this moment, it's liberating)
I can do whatever I choose.
The Principal of the School at Graduation
Do something every day that
scares you
Today, again, I choose to blaze a trail of my own
To remember to stop looking around me and totally freaking out that the other peoples paths look better or different to mine
In the words of Elle Woods
I've got to find my way
In the words of Sondheim
It's our time, breathe it in, worlds to change and worlds to win
What do you do with a BA in English (/History)?
You get an MA in Music Theatre,
You take a deep breath
And -
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Imagine Two-years-ago-me
Sitting in her room
In suburban Sydney
Wishing hoping for something different
And following Amy Krouse Rosenthal
And being inspired by what she had to say
Her interactive works of art
And flashmobs and acts of kindness and moments centered around
The Bean, Chicago.
And finding
Today Me
Sitting on the grass opposite
The Bean, Chicago
And feeling like
Oh. My. Goodness. Look where we have come!
And sitting in the public park
On a glorious late summer's day
And people watching
There's a family on a picnic blanket
Mom and two sons
All reading books,
There's a grown-up mother and daughter
Just lounging on the grass
Looking up at the sky, the clouds, the shimmer of trees
The mother has white hair and permanent wrinkles around her mouth
The daughter has brown hair and similar, though less pronounced wrinkles,
And every so often the daughter turns her head to her mother.
There's a mother and baby,
The baby is old enough to sit up on her own, but not yet old enough to be forming words
She can hear the band in the distance, but can't quite figure out where the sound is coming from.
The music excites her and she points to the sky and smiles and exclaims,
"Oh!"
She toddles around on the grass, smiles shyly at strangers who smile at her, and occasionally stops to bop along to the distant music-
She is distracted by another baby, a boy a few months older than her,
He is oblivious to her existence but she smiles and waves at him anyway,
"Look at us! We. Are. So. Clever!"
And then finding
Today-Me
Sitting in a car
With a patient, loving boy
Driving across the vastness that is America
And seeing all the corn and soybeans and giant billboards
And literally driving into the most glorious of sunsets
Where the sun is an impossible giant orange ball
And suddenly you are in
Colorado
And there are mountains in the west
And the streets are wide
And the sky is so incredibly blue
And bands are playing in the small parks
And the lady who sells chocolate honey at the farmer's market is an actual witch
Who knows how to brew concoctions that taste like heaven
And the man from the winery is willing with his samples
And the fruit tastes so good you can't believe you ever lived without it
And you breathe in the warm dry air
And you wonder
What is next on the adventure?
The end.
Sitting in her room
In suburban Sydney
Wishing hoping for something different
And following Amy Krouse Rosenthal
And being inspired by what she had to say
Her interactive works of art
And flashmobs and acts of kindness and moments centered around
The Bean, Chicago.
And finding
Today Me
Sitting on the grass opposite
The Bean, Chicago
And feeling like
Oh. My. Goodness. Look where we have come!
And sitting in the public park
On a glorious late summer's day
And people watching
There's a family on a picnic blanket
Mom and two sons
All reading books,
There's a grown-up mother and daughter
Just lounging on the grass
Looking up at the sky, the clouds, the shimmer of trees
The mother has white hair and permanent wrinkles around her mouth
The daughter has brown hair and similar, though less pronounced wrinkles,
And every so often the daughter turns her head to her mother.
There's a mother and baby,
The baby is old enough to sit up on her own, but not yet old enough to be forming words
She can hear the band in the distance, but can't quite figure out where the sound is coming from.
The music excites her and she points to the sky and smiles and exclaims,
"Oh!"
She toddles around on the grass, smiles shyly at strangers who smile at her, and occasionally stops to bop along to the distant music-
She is distracted by another baby, a boy a few months older than her,
He is oblivious to her existence but she smiles and waves at him anyway,
"Look at us! We. Are. So. Clever!"
And then finding
Today-Me
Sitting in a car
With a patient, loving boy
Driving across the vastness that is America
And seeing all the corn and soybeans and giant billboards
And literally driving into the most glorious of sunsets
Where the sun is an impossible giant orange ball
And suddenly you are in
Colorado
And there are mountains in the west
And the streets are wide
And the sky is so incredibly blue
And bands are playing in the small parks
And the lady who sells chocolate honey at the farmer's market is an actual witch
Who knows how to brew concoctions that taste like heaven
And the man from the winery is willing with his samples
And the fruit tastes so good you can't believe you ever lived without it
And you breathe in the warm dry air
And you wonder
What is next on the adventure?
The end.
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Helene and I performing the Swedish frog song. Photo by Rene Macione
The camp where I work was founded by pacifists, people who had endured the horrors of Nazi Germany. Today our place of work is staffed by people from all over the world Australia, New Zealand, Mexico, Ireland, Scotland, Canada, Poland, Czech Republic, Sweden... As a
result, we don't celebrate Independence Day, we celebrate Diversity Day. In the evening the international staff and international campers share their cultures, their music and stories and tidbits of information that make their cultures different to the American one. But even Diversity Day makes me uncomfortable. I feel anxious around displays of nationalism. And so, I wrote and shared the following.
Diversity Day. I don’t care where you come from. Allow me to explain. I am Australian. I am Spanish. I am descendent from Filipinos, Dutch, and Polish. I have blood relatives in Spain, Switzerland, England, America, Canada, the Philippines, and Australia. I speak un pocito Español. I grew up in Sydney, approximately 10,000 miles from this place. Where I come from we wear thongs instead of flip flops, the forest is called the bush. We eat lollies and not candy, and wear singlets instead of tank tops. We say it is hot outside, and not it is hot out. I call my friends on a mobile not a cell, We don’t walk upside down. Nor do our toilet bowls flush in the opposite direction... I don’t think. I never rode a kangaroo to school. I never owned a pet koala. I never met Steve Irwin.
I’m rather uncomfortable with declarations of nationalistic pride. I grew up in a country whose national day of pride is Anzac Day, which commemorates the landing of Australian and New Zealander troops on the shores of Galipoli, Turkey, and were subsequently slaughtered in their thousands. Now we’re friends with the Turkish, and we eat their delicious foods and every year thousands more Australians congregate at Galipoli to remember the fallen from nearly a hundred years before.
I’m a raging pacifist. I don’t get war. I really don’t. Once upon a time the British fought the Americans. Then they decided to stop. Now they are allies. Now they laugh at each other from across the pond. Seventy years ago my country was shooting Turks, and Germans, and Italians. Seventy years later I grew up eating pita bread, pretzels, and pizza. When my grandparents were teenagers they were sheltering from Japanese bombs and fearing death. My grandmother now drives a Japanese car, we all eat sushi, and my class at school almost had more Japanese students than Australian.
I don’t get displays of nationalistic pride. They make me uncomfortable. I’ve spent the
last five years traveling the world. I’ve been to Spain, Portugal, Morocco, Germany, France, Switzerland, England, Wales, and the US of A. Now I may have only begun to scrape the surface of the metaphorical travel iceberg but here’s what I’ve discovered in my travels. No one place is better or worse than any other. America is no more the land of the free than Australia is the land of sunshine. In all those places I’ve seen people going about their daily lives. They wake up, they eat food, they go to the toilet, they spend the day making ends meet, if they’re lucky they’ll have time to play. At the end of the day they gather with their families and then they go to sleep. There are variations on this theme. Yes, many people have less other people. Yes, you have the occasional people that spend their days plotting the demise of other people who aren’t their people. But you know what? Most people just happened upon this here crazy planet, and they’re doing the best that they can.
Diversity Day. I don’t care where you come from. I care that you treat me decently just because. I care that I can be open to cultures and traditions and foods and that aren’t my own. It may be naive. It may be simplistic. But we’ve got to start somewhere. I hope you’ll care less where I come from. At the end of the day, let’s just exist on this planet together. Let’s draw on several thousand years of human history and share the foods that our ancestors ate. Let’s find a way to share life, liberty, and the pursuit of happyness in all its rich diversity.
The end.
result, we don't celebrate Independence Day, we celebrate Diversity Day. In the evening the international staff and international campers share their cultures, their music and stories and tidbits of information that make their cultures different to the American one. But even Diversity Day makes me uncomfortable. I feel anxious around displays of nationalism. And so, I wrote and shared the following.
Diversity Day. I don’t care where you come from. Allow me to explain. I am Australian. I am Spanish. I am descendent from Filipinos, Dutch, and Polish. I have blood relatives in Spain, Switzerland, England, America, Canada, the Philippines, and Australia. I speak un pocito Español. I grew up in Sydney, approximately 10,000 miles from this place. Where I come from we wear thongs instead of flip flops, the forest is called the bush. We eat lollies and not candy, and wear singlets instead of tank tops. We say it is hot outside, and not it is hot out. I call my friends on a mobile not a cell, We don’t walk upside down. Nor do our toilet bowls flush in the opposite direction... I don’t think. I never rode a kangaroo to school. I never owned a pet koala. I never met Steve Irwin.
I’m rather uncomfortable with declarations of nationalistic pride. I grew up in a country whose national day of pride is Anzac Day, which commemorates the landing of Australian and New Zealander troops on the shores of Galipoli, Turkey, and were subsequently slaughtered in their thousands. Now we’re friends with the Turkish, and we eat their delicious foods and every year thousands more Australians congregate at Galipoli to remember the fallen from nearly a hundred years before.
I’m a raging pacifist. I don’t get war. I really don’t. Once upon a time the British fought the Americans. Then they decided to stop. Now they are allies. Now they laugh at each other from across the pond. Seventy years ago my country was shooting Turks, and Germans, and Italians. Seventy years later I grew up eating pita bread, pretzels, and pizza. When my grandparents were teenagers they were sheltering from Japanese bombs and fearing death. My grandmother now drives a Japanese car, we all eat sushi, and my class at school almost had more Japanese students than Australian.
I don’t get displays of nationalistic pride. They make me uncomfortable. I’ve spent the
last five years traveling the world. I’ve been to Spain, Portugal, Morocco, Germany, France, Switzerland, England, Wales, and the US of A. Now I may have only begun to scrape the surface of the metaphorical travel iceberg but here’s what I’ve discovered in my travels. No one place is better or worse than any other. America is no more the land of the free than Australia is the land of sunshine. In all those places I’ve seen people going about their daily lives. They wake up, they eat food, they go to the toilet, they spend the day making ends meet, if they’re lucky they’ll have time to play. At the end of the day they gather with their families and then they go to sleep. There are variations on this theme. Yes, many people have less other people. Yes, you have the occasional people that spend their days plotting the demise of other people who aren’t their people. But you know what? Most people just happened upon this here crazy planet, and they’re doing the best that they can.
Diversity Day. I don’t care where you come from. I care that you treat me decently just because. I care that I can be open to cultures and traditions and foods and that aren’t my own. It may be naive. It may be simplistic. But we’ve got to start somewhere. I hope you’ll care less where I come from. At the end of the day, let’s just exist on this planet together. Let’s draw on several thousand years of human history and share the foods that our ancestors ate. Let’s find a way to share life, liberty, and the pursuit of happyness in all its rich diversity.
The end.
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From Boston to Hyannis and
Across then across the water
To the island of Nantucket.
I’ve been here in the summer, late spring, and winter,
I’ve seen soft pink roses climbing up the trellises and walls
I’ve seen icicles dripping off the picket fences
I’ve been here before it’s warm enough to swim
And hot enough to brave the chilly water.
I’ve cycled down to the beach
And sat on the warm sand
And fed myself hot chips,
I’ve sat on the deck at the brewery
When the sky was bright blue
And the sun was warm
And the local wines were flowing.
I’ve sat in the Bean when the weather outside was biting cold and played Scrabble and drunk hot chocolate,
I’ve sung in the church choir at Christmas
And stood in my tita’s impossibly tiny kitchen and
Learnt to bake American style Christmas treats,
Sugar cookies, lemon love notes and chocolate truffles
I’ve built gingerbread houses covered in candy
And danced the chicken dance on New Year’s Eve.
I’ve walked down Main Street countless times
To the beautiful home of my Titos de Nantucket.
I’m not just a mainland tourist
I’m family,
And the familiar (haha!) lovely welcoming warmth of it
Is comforting.
The island may seem idyllic,
It is indeed beautiful,
But being here over several visits over the past few years
I know it is a place where people live their lives.
There is joy and heartache and work and life
Just like any other place,
But today I sat on the wharf
With my book
And I watched the boat ferrying my prima back to Boston
Head out of the bay
And I sent her a message to remind her to throw two pennies overboard
To ensure she will return
And the sun was warm
And the water was shimmering
And I smiled my thank you to the beach
That I can be here
And feel like I’m ever welcome
To share in the magic of the island
The end.
Across then across the water
To the island of Nantucket.
I’ve been here in the summer, late spring, and winter,
I’ve seen soft pink roses climbing up the trellises and walls
I’ve seen icicles dripping off the picket fences
I’ve been here before it’s warm enough to swim
And hot enough to brave the chilly water.
I’ve cycled down to the beach
And sat on the warm sand
And fed myself hot chips,
I’ve sat on the deck at the brewery
When the sky was bright blue
And the sun was warm
And the local wines were flowing.
I’ve sat in the Bean when the weather outside was biting cold and played Scrabble and drunk hot chocolate,
I’ve sung in the church choir at Christmas
And stood in my tita’s impossibly tiny kitchen and
Learnt to bake American style Christmas treats,
Sugar cookies, lemon love notes and chocolate truffles
I’ve built gingerbread houses covered in candy
And danced the chicken dance on New Year’s Eve.
I’ve walked down Main Street countless times
To the beautiful home of my Titos de Nantucket.
I’m not just a mainland tourist
I’m family,
And the familiar (haha!) lovely welcoming warmth of it
Is comforting.
The island may seem idyllic,
It is indeed beautiful,
But being here over several visits over the past few years
I know it is a place where people live their lives.
There is joy and heartache and work and life
Just like any other place,
But today I sat on the wharf
With my book
And I watched the boat ferrying my prima back to Boston
Head out of the bay
And I sent her a message to remind her to throw two pennies overboard
To ensure she will return
And the sun was warm
And the water was shimmering
And I smiled my thank you to the beach
That I can be here
And feel like I’m ever welcome
To share in the magic of the island
The end.
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Far out, I love traveling!
I love packing my bags
I love the heartache of saying goodbye to somewhere that’s become familiar
I love getting to the airport and the thrill of all the possibilities
I love checking in
I love watching my bright blue backpack being tagged and sent off to the bowels of the airport where people unseen will make sure it goes to where I’m going
The logistics of it all boggle my mind
I even love going through security
The quiet patience of people waiting in line
To be checked by other people
To make sure that the waiting people
Don’t hurt countless other people
The strange routine of it
Imagine if someone were looking in from outer space
What would they say?!
I love getting through security and seeing the departures board
And all those destinations
And the way you have to search for the flight that is yours
I love living in Europe
I love that last weekend I was in
Geneva
Eating local organic fish
Because the restaurant didn’t have a single vegetarian option
Because in many parts of Europe, being vegetarian just doesn’t exist
You’re vegetarian? Ah! I make you lamb.
It’s actually true!
And the thrill of looking out across Lake Leman
(not Lake Geneva, the French get cranky)
And seeing Mont Blanc
Rising impossibly like some kind of cloud
Perpetually white
Perpetually beautiful and tall and majestic and all the cliches a mountain should be
And the weekend before that I was in Bath, England!
And walking around the ancient streets with a
man dressed in 18th century garb
Showing us where Captain Philip resided (and fell out of a window and died)
And standing at the said Captain’s front door and thinking
Because this man once sailed far away
Because god and country
Because colonies and history
I am an Australian/Spaniard whose ancestors traveled from Poland and the Philippines and Spain and China standing outside an Englishman’s front door in Bath.
It is ridiculous. It is wonderful. It is life.
And there are friends and family
Scattered all over this globe
And you think no matter how often you travel
How many places you tick off the destination list
You will never quite manage to see them all even just once
And the excitement of going someplace new
To see things you’ve never seen before
And try foods you didn’t even know existed
(Until last week I had never heard of raclette, and now it’s a firm favorite! The Swiss and their delicious amazing cheeses!
Until the week before I had never been to Stonehenge or seen the Roman Baths in
Bath! The overwhelming delicious ancient history of it)
To breathe air that is new and different
To be a person whose life occupation is discovering the world
To look out at it in wonder
And sometimes be frightened by it
And sometimes be in love with it
And sometimes just be amazed that you’re here
And that you get to see it
The thrill rush joy of it.
The end.
I love packing my bags
I love the heartache of saying goodbye to somewhere that’s become familiar
I love getting to the airport and the thrill of all the possibilities
I love checking in
I love watching my bright blue backpack being tagged and sent off to the bowels of the airport where people unseen will make sure it goes to where I’m going
The logistics of it all boggle my mind
I even love going through security
The quiet patience of people waiting in line
To be checked by other people
To make sure that the waiting people
Don’t hurt countless other people
The strange routine of it
Imagine if someone were looking in from outer space
What would they say?!
I love getting through security and seeing the departures board
And all those destinations
And the way you have to search for the flight that is yours
I love living in Europe
I love that last weekend I was in
Geneva
Eating local organic fish
Because the restaurant didn’t have a single vegetarian option
Because in many parts of Europe, being vegetarian just doesn’t exist
You’re vegetarian? Ah! I make you lamb.
It’s actually true!
And the thrill of looking out across Lake Leman
(not Lake Geneva, the French get cranky)
And seeing Mont Blanc
Rising impossibly like some kind of cloud
Perpetually white
Perpetually beautiful and tall and majestic and all the cliches a mountain should be
And the weekend before that I was in Bath, England!
And walking around the ancient streets with a
man dressed in 18th century garb
Showing us where Captain Philip resided (and fell out of a window and died)
And standing at the said Captain’s front door and thinking
Because this man once sailed far away
Because god and country
Because colonies and history
I am an Australian/Spaniard whose ancestors traveled from Poland and the Philippines and Spain and China standing outside an Englishman’s front door in Bath.
It is ridiculous. It is wonderful. It is life.
And there are friends and family
Scattered all over this globe
And you think no matter how often you travel
How many places you tick off the destination list
You will never quite manage to see them all even just once
And the excitement of going someplace new
To see things you’ve never seen before
And try foods you didn’t even know existed
(Until last week I had never heard of raclette, and now it’s a firm favorite! The Swiss and their delicious amazing cheeses!
Until the week before I had never been to Stonehenge or seen the Roman Baths in
Bath! The overwhelming delicious ancient history of it)
To breathe air that is new and different
To be a person whose life occupation is discovering the world
To look out at it in wonder
And sometimes be frightened by it
And sometimes be in love with it
And sometimes just be amazed that you’re here
And that you get to see it
The thrill rush joy of it.
The end.
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Your love sends you a link to a film
Directed by Emilio Estevez
And it's about the Camino
And how a man goes to recover the body of his son
Who dies along the way
And the father decides to walk it himself
And it stirs a memory
Of all the markers along the way
Of people who have died
Whilst making their pilgrimage
And it makes you wonder
In all your memories of the
Camino
You hadn't thought about those markers
But you remember that journey
That walk across the top of Spain
That you did yourself, four years ago
Walking 780km in 6 weeks
It seems like a life time ago
A whole other self that took that journey
That made you so much of who you are today
The night before the Cruz de Ferro
The highest point on the Camino
You tossed and turned and agonized
About what to leave behind
What to ask the Camino to relieve from your shoulders
Traditionally you bring a stone from home
And leave it at the highest point
And with it you leave all your troubles
And you had this realization
That no matter what thing of significance you left behind
There would always be something
In life, there would always be something troubling you
And you would have to make this pilgrimage literally annually to be absolved of pain
And in the early hours of the morning
You had an epiphany
You didn’t want to leave pain and suffering
You wanted to leave something positive
Something that you could carry with you forever
And you decided to leave gratitude
Dear Universe. For being. My soul. For love.
For energy. For strength. For knowledge. Thank you.
And you posted that message, written on the
back of a peppermint tea bag wrapper
Into a cairn built into the highest point
Posted a message to the universe
To your higher self
To a future self
And from then on, the Camino became more beautiful
The scenery more picturesque
The grass actually greener
Whether or not you had passed into the lush province of Galicia
Doesn’t matter
Something was lifted and changed
And four years later
Sitting in London
You remember that self
That tortured self who wanted to sing and dance and act and be in love and be happy
And you whisper in her ear
It all comes true.
The end.
Directed by Emilio Estevez
And it's about the Camino
And how a man goes to recover the body of his son
Who dies along the way
And the father decides to walk it himself
And it stirs a memory
Of all the markers along the way
Of people who have died
Whilst making their pilgrimage
And it makes you wonder
In all your memories of the
Camino
You hadn't thought about those markers
But you remember that journey
That walk across the top of Spain
That you did yourself, four years ago
Walking 780km in 6 weeks
It seems like a life time ago
A whole other self that took that journey
That made you so much of who you are today
The night before the Cruz de Ferro
The highest point on the Camino
You tossed and turned and agonized
About what to leave behind
What to ask the Camino to relieve from your shoulders
Traditionally you bring a stone from home
And leave it at the highest point
And with it you leave all your troubles
And you had this realization
That no matter what thing of significance you left behind
There would always be something
In life, there would always be something troubling you
And you would have to make this pilgrimage literally annually to be absolved of pain
And in the early hours of the morning
You had an epiphany
You didn’t want to leave pain and suffering
You wanted to leave something positive
Something that you could carry with you forever
And you decided to leave gratitude
Dear Universe. For being. My soul. For love.
For energy. For strength. For knowledge. Thank you.
And you posted that message, written on the
back of a peppermint tea bag wrapper
Into a cairn built into the highest point
Posted a message to the universe
To your higher self
To a future self
And from then on, the Camino became more beautiful
The scenery more picturesque
The grass actually greener
Whether or not you had passed into the lush province of Galicia
Doesn’t matter
Something was lifted and changed
And four years later
Sitting in London
You remember that self
That tortured self who wanted to sing and dance and act and be in love and be happy
And you whisper in her ear
It all comes true.
The end.
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Despite my pasaporte de España
I’m not fluent in the language
An 8-week course and a little time in Spain
Do not a fluent Spanish speaker make
But I can follow a conversation
Catch words I recognize
Get the gist
Churros con chocolate for breakfast
Now there’s a language I understand!
The energy of the island
The blanco of the houses
My titos, relatives who lift my heart and soul and make me laugh
Spoil me rotten
Feed me up with tortilla y papas arugadas con mojo
The onions and garlic and olive oil
National signifiers of Spanishness
The essential ingredients to any good meal
(Remember standing in the markets in Islington
And the three musicians
Who played flamenco music
Were set up next to the olive oil stand
And you thought that was very appropriate
The glorious delicious cliche of it)
And from the tiny aeropuerto
You can fly to Nuremburg or Madrid or Varsovia or Gran Canaria or Gatwick or Amsterdam
And you think no matter how long you’ve been away from
Your island home
Far away in another hemisphere
The novelty of being able to travel to such destinations for a weekend
Will never quite wear off
And you’re entirely grateful
That so much of the world is your oyster
And you can understand enough to say
Gracias.
The end.
I’m not fluent in the language
An 8-week course and a little time in Spain
Do not a fluent Spanish speaker make
But I can follow a conversation
Catch words I recognize
Get the gist
Churros con chocolate for breakfast
Now there’s a language I understand!
The energy of the island
The blanco of the houses
My titos, relatives who lift my heart and soul and make me laugh
Spoil me rotten
Feed me up with tortilla y papas arugadas con mojo
The onions and garlic and olive oil
National signifiers of Spanishness
The essential ingredients to any good meal
(Remember standing in the markets in Islington
And the three musicians
Who played flamenco music
Were set up next to the olive oil stand
And you thought that was very appropriate
The glorious delicious cliche of it)
And from the tiny aeropuerto
You can fly to Nuremburg or Madrid or Varsovia or Gran Canaria or Gatwick or Amsterdam
And you think no matter how long you’ve been away from
Your island home
Far away in another hemisphere
The novelty of being able to travel to such destinations for a weekend
Will never quite wear off
And you’re entirely grateful
That so much of the world is your oyster
And you can understand enough to say
Gracias.
The end.
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You're standing outside St Paul's Cathedral
That giant dome
That signifier of your childhood
Mary Poppins on VHS
Watching it and rewining it and watching it and rewinding it until the tape falls apart
And you think:
What brings us to a place?
Depression when you were fourteen.
Sitting on the train on that bright blue sky day and realizing
You don't feel anything
And then all those intervening years.
The deaths of two friends. Young women like you. They decided they couldn't do
it anymore.
Sitting at Coogee Beach and looking out to the ocean and wondering what on earth was next.
Learning about mindfulness.
Two years and a world trip later.
Waiting for the hair dressers and chatting with the woman, a stranger, sitting next to you.
She told you how you could do a certificate in Meditation.
Who was that woman???
And then Kris.
And then London.
And then meeting another woman on the train.
A random conversation, a chance encounter, and you've met a kindred spirit.
And then you are standing outside St. Paul's Cathedral and the familiarity of it, the instant I'm-home of it is shocking every time.
That tall grand building with its dome lit the way it is
It makes you gasp.
It's so much a part of you,
A part of your childhood,
Despite the fact you grew up over 10,000 miles away.
And then you're inside The Anthologist.
A bar in Central London.
And there are birdcages and tea cups and mason jars full of tea lights.
And there is a group of women, with the occasional man, gathered
to talk about mindfulness
Strong, radiating women, with a mission to change the world one meditation at a time.
And you're here because of a chance (synchronistic) encounter on a train
Or because you watched Mary Poppins on repeat as a child
Or because you had depression and you learnt about mindfulness and because the world is small it all leads back to the same place eventually
And you stand outside St Paul's
And you let the cold air rush into your nostrils (breathing mindfully)
And then you laugh because you're on your way home on the tube!
Tell that to your fourteen year old self, or even your four-year-old self,
Dear You/Me/Us.
Guess what? You grow up and fall in love and move to London and walk past St.
Paul's Cathedral and mingle with people in fancy bars and one day you even climb
to the top of the dome and you kiss a boy with the rooftops of London as your
backdrop. For real.
What brings us here?
Fate? Synchronicity?
Chance?
The world.
The end.
That giant dome
That signifier of your childhood
Mary Poppins on VHS
Watching it and rewining it and watching it and rewinding it until the tape falls apart
And you think:
What brings us to a place?
Depression when you were fourteen.
Sitting on the train on that bright blue sky day and realizing
You don't feel anything
And then all those intervening years.
The deaths of two friends. Young women like you. They decided they couldn't do
it anymore.
Sitting at Coogee Beach and looking out to the ocean and wondering what on earth was next.
Learning about mindfulness.
Two years and a world trip later.
Waiting for the hair dressers and chatting with the woman, a stranger, sitting next to you.
She told you how you could do a certificate in Meditation.
Who was that woman???
And then Kris.
And then London.
And then meeting another woman on the train.
A random conversation, a chance encounter, and you've met a kindred spirit.
And then you are standing outside St. Paul's Cathedral and the familiarity of it, the instant I'm-home of it is shocking every time.
That tall grand building with its dome lit the way it is
It makes you gasp.
It's so much a part of you,
A part of your childhood,
Despite the fact you grew up over 10,000 miles away.
And then you're inside The Anthologist.
A bar in Central London.
And there are birdcages and tea cups and mason jars full of tea lights.
And there is a group of women, with the occasional man, gathered
to talk about mindfulness
Strong, radiating women, with a mission to change the world one meditation at a time.
And you're here because of a chance (synchronistic) encounter on a train
Or because you watched Mary Poppins on repeat as a child
Or because you had depression and you learnt about mindfulness and because the world is small it all leads back to the same place eventually
And you stand outside St Paul's
And you let the cold air rush into your nostrils (breathing mindfully)
And then you laugh because you're on your way home on the tube!
Tell that to your fourteen year old self, or even your four-year-old self,
Dear You/Me/Us.
Guess what? You grow up and fall in love and move to London and walk past St.
Paul's Cathedral and mingle with people in fancy bars and one day you even climb
to the top of the dome and you kiss a boy with the rooftops of London as your
backdrop. For real.
What brings us here?
Fate? Synchronicity?
Chance?
The world.
The end.
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In the morning you go out to meet another Aussie-expat and you go to a lovely Australian/New-Zealander cafe called Flat White and enjoy your renewed-found love of coffee. You make a note-to-self to find an alternative to espresso, as even four sugars per tiny cup seems excessive - though it is down from five. You enjoy delicious toast with homemade hummus and fresh avocado. It is the best hummus you have had in ages but you spend the rest of the day paranoid you reek of garlic. Afterwards you walk through beautiful
St James's Park to the War Rooms. There are ducks and geese and swans and a woman is hand-feeding them over the fence. You think she is a bit mad, but realize that these birds
are probably rather used to people hand-feeding them.
The Churchill War Rooms are bizzare. They are secret bunkers for the British War Cabinet during The War. Small and slightly claustrophobic and when the war ended the people literally turned off the lights, walked out, closed the door, and didn't come back for decades. Now the rooms and corridors and bunkers are a museum and you can walk through and see exactly how it all was over seventy years ago. Imagine being in the rooms Back Then. The rooms would have been smokey because everybody smoked back then, and above you the world was falling apart and you didn't know if when you left work for the day (or night) if your house or even your street was still going to be there when you did. No one except the government was allowed to know that you worked there because it was Top Secret. If you were a secretary you had a special gas mask that allowed you keep talking on the telephone even during a gas attack. The War Stops For Nobody.
You walk back to Soho to the Soho Theatre Bar to mingle with other drama students. You are late, but it seems you haven't missed much except a free drink. A casting director is giving a talk. She says things you have mostly heard before, but you're feeling light and inspired and you scribble down some of her points and feel a sense of renewed enthusiasm. Then you wander around the room and meet some of the other actors. They are all graduating this year too, ready to go out into the Big Wide World and try their luck at this acting thing. Will all this time and money and effort be worth it?
You meet a girl with Scandinavian/American heritage. She wants to move to New York and live the life of a starving actor. She knows it's a bit weird to want that life, but you understand what she means. It's New York. And then you meet a boy who gives you the feeling that he is on the cusp of something brilliant, but you're not quite sure what it is, but
you're sure he is destined for great things. And then you meet another girl who is interested in verbatim theatre and using theatre to make a positive difference to the world. And it is nice to meet someone as excited and passionate as you about the possibility of theatre.
You head home on the tube. And you get home and you make chickpea patties, which you haven't made in the longest time, and you make a big batch of quinoa and steam some spinach. And you spread a little beetroot dip from yesterday's cooking adventures on the chickpea patties, and you pour out a little sweet chilli sauce. And you sit at your desk to do some work and you breathe and smile and know that you have had a most wonderful
day.
The end.
St James's Park to the War Rooms. There are ducks and geese and swans and a woman is hand-feeding them over the fence. You think she is a bit mad, but realize that these birds
are probably rather used to people hand-feeding them.
The Churchill War Rooms are bizzare. They are secret bunkers for the British War Cabinet during The War. Small and slightly claustrophobic and when the war ended the people literally turned off the lights, walked out, closed the door, and didn't come back for decades. Now the rooms and corridors and bunkers are a museum and you can walk through and see exactly how it all was over seventy years ago. Imagine being in the rooms Back Then. The rooms would have been smokey because everybody smoked back then, and above you the world was falling apart and you didn't know if when you left work for the day (or night) if your house or even your street was still going to be there when you did. No one except the government was allowed to know that you worked there because it was Top Secret. If you were a secretary you had a special gas mask that allowed you keep talking on the telephone even during a gas attack. The War Stops For Nobody.
You walk back to Soho to the Soho Theatre Bar to mingle with other drama students. You are late, but it seems you haven't missed much except a free drink. A casting director is giving a talk. She says things you have mostly heard before, but you're feeling light and inspired and you scribble down some of her points and feel a sense of renewed enthusiasm. Then you wander around the room and meet some of the other actors. They are all graduating this year too, ready to go out into the Big Wide World and try their luck at this acting thing. Will all this time and money and effort be worth it?
You meet a girl with Scandinavian/American heritage. She wants to move to New York and live the life of a starving actor. She knows it's a bit weird to want that life, but you understand what she means. It's New York. And then you meet a boy who gives you the feeling that he is on the cusp of something brilliant, but you're not quite sure what it is, but
you're sure he is destined for great things. And then you meet another girl who is interested in verbatim theatre and using theatre to make a positive difference to the world. And it is nice to meet someone as excited and passionate as you about the possibility of theatre.
You head home on the tube. And you get home and you make chickpea patties, which you haven't made in the longest time, and you make a big batch of quinoa and steam some spinach. And you spread a little beetroot dip from yesterday's cooking adventures on the chickpea patties, and you pour out a little sweet chilli sauce. And you sit at your desk to do some work and you breathe and smile and know that you have had a most wonderful
day.
The end.