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Up in the Air I Fly

Technically I don’t have a Jan 31 this year
​It still feels like the 30th when I left
Right now I’m flying over the Pacific
Sydney bound
The joy of airports
The novelty of duty free
And giant Toblerones
And whiskey and gin
And oversized packets of cigarettes 
In Vancouver, it’s
Maple-flavored everything
Maple syrup, maple fudge, maple chocolate, maple short bread, maple tea.
Not hungry? Have a maple leaf on a t-shirt
Thinking about the stories of all the people around me
The humanity of it
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NYC Temples

This morning I went for a run 
And found myself outside Yankee Stadium
And later I went for a walk 
And found myself outside the Cathedral of St John the Divine 
​My god I love New York! 
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The Connector

“People like musicals, enough talking about it.”
​Jason Robert Brown

Tonight, after a performance of The Connector
A truly wonderful new musical about 
Writing and truth and story-telling and fact checking
(It's so good in fact, that I saw it twice in one week) 
The composer and musical director 
Jason Robert Brown said 
"People like musicals, enough talking about it." 
And I wanted to shout
PREEEEACH! and
​LOUDER FOR THE STUDIO EXECUTIVES IN THE BACK!!! 
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Meeting

Sometimes you get to meet your idols
And they are every bit as lovely
And kind 
As you'd hoped 
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Tonight at the show
There was a tech delay
Which delayed opening the house by 17 minutes
Once the house was open 
We sat 950+ people in less than 20 minutes
And the show only started 2 minutes late
It was exhilarating 
And this is why we love live thea-tuh!
​The magic of the unexpected 
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Survivorship Meeting

The joy of 
Being told that your counts
Look perfect 
​And we'll see you in a year. 
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Survivorship

Today I got blood work
In prep for my survivorship meeting tomorrow 
2024 marks ten years since I was diagnosed with leukemia
A disease that, when I was diagnosed, had a survival rate beyond 5 years of 25% 
And even though cancerversary isn't until July
And transplant-aversary isn't until October 
Today felt like a VICTORY LAP 
TEN YEARS!!! 
I'm a unicorn! 
After the labs I walked down town
And across town
All the way from 74th and FDR Drive
To 48th and 8th 
And I thought about the myriad of people who got me here
Aaron
The Rabinowii
All the Buck's Rockers 
Anita
Jodi
My fellow young adult survivors 
Dr Stein, Dr P, Kim, Marjorie, and every nurse 
Every clinician 
All the runners on Fred's Team
Everyone who came to cheer along the marathon route
All my friends and family from across the globe
Sydney, London, FoCo, New York
Every soul who has been part of this insane overwhelming exhausting journey 
And feel thankful thankful thankful 
And I think about the giant blue heart 
On the wall
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Oranges and Nutella Hot Chocolate

Traipsing around Astoria
With a dear friend
Window shopping in a lovely local store
Chatting about the infuriating decision of the Academy with the shop girls 
Catching up over nutella hot chocolate 
​Soothing and warm and sweet
Later at work
The gift of a box of fresh oranges
The delight of 
Sweet and tangy citrus
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Yesterday we learned that George passed away
It bought back memories of the Hakoa Club
And schnitzel and chips for dinner
Coffee at the Belaroma and that place in Bondi
Dinner at his mum’s Jewish care home
The place where I first got drunk (by accident)
Downing the sweet manischewitz
Which was supposed to be non-alcoholic
But wasn’t
The place where I asked George to dance
And he carefully said we couldn’t
Because there were Orthodox Jews in the room
And we might upset them
A man and a woman (a child) dancing together
That warm and kind and generous soul
Whom we once accidentally called Dad
And he didn’t seem to mind at all

Tonight on my way home
I stumbled past Holy Schnitzel
I’d already had dinner but felt like a snack
So I got a side of fries
(In my reminiscing, I was wondering why they didn’t have hot chips on the menu
Still translating after almost 13 years away)
The chips were delicious
I’ll have to go back for the schnitzel
I bet it’s not as good
There’s no Alex the Kid
The grown ups won’t be talking at the table while we play

I’m sad I didn’t get to say goodbye
That I missed you by a week
Thank you for being such a good man
For all the care you took
For your generosity
Your kindness
Your warmth
You will be missed
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Home for Dinner

The absolute luxury of an early shift 
Coming home via the store for essentials 
Yogurt, onions, garlic, ice cream 
And then having the time and space
To make chicken broth
That golden delicious balm for the soul
Whipping up a batch of basil pesto hummus
With homegrown basil leaves 
Having noodles for dinner 
And ice cream with tappy sauce for dessert 

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