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One day the wind changes
And a new nanny blows in from the north
A young lady who is on her own journey
But your four-year-old self has no concept of any of that
She is a magical lovely being
With bright curly hair
And a big smile
She makes everything fun
Your very own Mary Poppins
She is even English!
And she becomes a part of your life. Your family. Your
world.
Eventually, the wind changes
As it must and always will
And your very own Mary Poppins
Heads off again for more adventures of her own
Over the years you all keep in touch
Until it grows sporadic
Life just happens
You go to school
Parents separate
You go to high school and university
And travel
And write
And everybody goes about their days filled with breakfasts, and lunches, and
dinners
And the small things we don’t think about
That mark and pass each day
Until over twenty years have passed
And you’re a year off from thirty
And out of the blue
Your very own Mary Poppins writes to you through your
website
And you discover she lives in Chicago!
You plan to meet up.
You’re nervous. Why?!
It has been close to twenty-five years since you’ve seen each
other!
And you see her, and she’s still your nanny
She’s still magical and lovely
Still has the great big smile, though all her curls are gone
And she has children of her own
(The same age you were once upon a time!)
And even though all this time has passed
Even though all these lives have been lived in the intervening
time
It’s just like being with family, with a very close aunt or big
sister
She asks if you could stay in Chicago and become her
nanny!
You wish you could. You really do.
You never want to leave!
But the wind has changed
And you’re headed off for adventures of your own
You give her a hug
And promise to return
That night, your heart is so full
You can’t even sleep.
It’s not memories, or even topics of conversation,
It’s this sense
That you’ve rediscovered who you are
Where you came from
And who was there
Who made you who you are
And that time and space
Can never separate kindred spirits
People who are supposed to be in our lives
And make it better
The end.
And a new nanny blows in from the north
A young lady who is on her own journey
But your four-year-old self has no concept of any of that
She is a magical lovely being
With bright curly hair
And a big smile
She makes everything fun
Your very own Mary Poppins
She is even English!
And she becomes a part of your life. Your family. Your
world.
Eventually, the wind changes
As it must and always will
And your very own Mary Poppins
Heads off again for more adventures of her own
Over the years you all keep in touch
Until it grows sporadic
Life just happens
You go to school
Parents separate
You go to high school and university
And travel
And write
And everybody goes about their days filled with breakfasts, and lunches, and
dinners
And the small things we don’t think about
That mark and pass each day
Until over twenty years have passed
And you’re a year off from thirty
And out of the blue
Your very own Mary Poppins writes to you through your
website
And you discover she lives in Chicago!
You plan to meet up.
You’re nervous. Why?!
It has been close to twenty-five years since you’ve seen each
other!
And you see her, and she’s still your nanny
She’s still magical and lovely
Still has the great big smile, though all her curls are gone
And she has children of her own
(The same age you were once upon a time!)
And even though all this time has passed
Even though all these lives have been lived in the intervening
time
It’s just like being with family, with a very close aunt or big
sister
She asks if you could stay in Chicago and become her
nanny!
You wish you could. You really do.
You never want to leave!
But the wind has changed
And you’re headed off for adventures of your own
You give her a hug
And promise to return
That night, your heart is so full
You can’t even sleep.
It’s not memories, or even topics of conversation,
It’s this sense
That you’ve rediscovered who you are
Where you came from
And who was there
Who made you who you are
And that time and space
Can never separate kindred spirits
People who are supposed to be in our lives
And make it better
The end.
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Farewell Fort Collins!
Blink and you almost miss it.
The pretty grid of streets becomes farmland in less than fifteen minutes.
Hit the freeway.
The mountains recede in the rear view mirror and,
Welcome to Wyoming!
The land becomes flatter
Until there is nothing but flat green to the distant horizon.
Welcome to Nebraska!
Mother Mary at the border.
Endless fields punctuated by giant horizontal, triangular sprinklers
Large metal silos and water towers
Herds of cattle
The occasional horse.
Trains snake their way along tracks in the distance.
Clusters of trees denote houses. Long dusty driveways trail from the house and run parallel to the freeway.
State-sponsored rest-stops with spotless restrooms and vending machines selling candy and soda.
Funky tasting water from the water fountains.
Outside, wind-blown picnic tables sit empty
Signs detail generic area histories.
The Native Americans...
The white “pioneers” and “settlers” ...
Electricity
“Progress”
Imagine traveling through here before asphalt and gas stations and water towers?!
Drive past Lincoln: Capital of Nebraska. President of the USA. Memorial in Washington. Library block and blue “house” at my high school in Sydney (Sydney, Australia - not Sidney, Wyoming).
We zip down the freeway.
Who organizes these endless fields? Switches on the sprinklers? Surveys the land?
Who creates the timetables of those long trains that chug through the landscape?
Or can sometimes be seen sitting still in the middle of nowhere. Where is the driver?
The network of gas stations. The people who staff them.
The road. The road. The road.
Puffy white clouds create patterns of sun and shade over the fields
Head towards darker clouds, and then, hard driving rain on the windshield.
Pass through.
More road, more fields, more clouds.
Wire fences and tilled land as far as the eye can see
Wide open spaces.
Road kill. Religious billboards. And gas stations.
Signs for Kansas City (everything’s up t’ date in...!)
The bridge with the monument and winged horses.
The bridge with the metal and corrugated iron sailing ships.
Welcome to Iowa!
Immediately after the border, the landscape begins to undulate.
We have been on the road for 9 hours.
We pull into Minden, Iowa.
(Min-den? Or Mind-en?)
Outside the Country General Store, a sun-faded sign
You are stomping into Minden!
With a couple standing in a bucket of grapes. There are cut-out spaces for heads and hands. Touristy. Gimmicky. Hilarious.
Travel down the road.
A cemetery lined with red, white, and blue flags.
It seems almost festive, all that color and movement
Flags waving in the wind.
Follow the road and arrows pointing to the motel and
“Central Business District”
Our road and two others converge on the war memorial
A sculptured
Over-sized American eagle, bronzed and bedecked in stars
Sternly stares down Main St
The one-storey motel, ex-legion’s club, community hall, post office, bank, and
Church
All look on in respect.
Further east down the road
A meat-packing and processing facility is bordered by the drug store,
The grocery store sits opposite.
Neat houses with trim lawns and brightly colored pin wheels stand almost regimentally down the street.
West of the memorial -
The fire station/mayor’s office
And more houses
Beyond Main Street, the world is fields of green and metal silos.
The motel is currently staffed by an obese older man.
He breathes heavily. The manager is at the movies with her boyfriend.
He takes us down to our room.
Here you go. Leave that switch on, it’s connected to the fridge. Shower in there. We have cable. 450 channels. We have wifi, I think. Not sure how to work it. I don’t have a computer. Enjoy your stay.
He shuffles back down the hallway. The effort is immense.
We seek out dinner. The grocery store is closed. The manager has returned. Marin. She is Egyptian. How did she end up in Minden, Iowa?
Marin of Minden offers frozen dinners - Salisbury steak with corn and mash.
The hippies, formerly of Fort Collins, who have cooked farmer’s market meals seven days a week for the past six months, try not to recoil rudely in fear of microwave food stuffs.
One dollar only! I make no profit!
We smile. Thank you, but I’m a vegetarian.
She looks at me curiously, processing this foreign term, vegetarian.
Ah! I have olives! And crackers? It’s Sunday. Everything closed! But, gas station, just down the road!
Apologetic thank you’s, and we head back to the car.
I love you! Marin calls out.
I eat granola for dinner. Damn hippies!
In the morning, it’s back on the road.
Count the road kill. Count the religious billboards. Count the gas stations.
The big move east,
We’re on our way.
Blink and you almost miss it.
The pretty grid of streets becomes farmland in less than fifteen minutes.
Hit the freeway.
The mountains recede in the rear view mirror and,
Welcome to Wyoming!
The land becomes flatter
Until there is nothing but flat green to the distant horizon.
Welcome to Nebraska!
Mother Mary at the border.
Endless fields punctuated by giant horizontal, triangular sprinklers
Large metal silos and water towers
Herds of cattle
The occasional horse.
Trains snake their way along tracks in the distance.
Clusters of trees denote houses. Long dusty driveways trail from the house and run parallel to the freeway.
State-sponsored rest-stops with spotless restrooms and vending machines selling candy and soda.
Funky tasting water from the water fountains.
Outside, wind-blown picnic tables sit empty
Signs detail generic area histories.
The Native Americans...
The white “pioneers” and “settlers” ...
Electricity
“Progress”
Imagine traveling through here before asphalt and gas stations and water towers?!
Drive past Lincoln: Capital of Nebraska. President of the USA. Memorial in Washington. Library block and blue “house” at my high school in Sydney (Sydney, Australia - not Sidney, Wyoming).
We zip down the freeway.
Who organizes these endless fields? Switches on the sprinklers? Surveys the land?
Who creates the timetables of those long trains that chug through the landscape?
Or can sometimes be seen sitting still in the middle of nowhere. Where is the driver?
The network of gas stations. The people who staff them.
The road. The road. The road.
Puffy white clouds create patterns of sun and shade over the fields
Head towards darker clouds, and then, hard driving rain on the windshield.
Pass through.
More road, more fields, more clouds.
Wire fences and tilled land as far as the eye can see
Wide open spaces.
Road kill. Religious billboards. And gas stations.
Signs for Kansas City (everything’s up t’ date in...!)
The bridge with the monument and winged horses.
The bridge with the metal and corrugated iron sailing ships.
Welcome to Iowa!
Immediately after the border, the landscape begins to undulate.
We have been on the road for 9 hours.
We pull into Minden, Iowa.
(Min-den? Or Mind-en?)
Outside the Country General Store, a sun-faded sign
You are stomping into Minden!
With a couple standing in a bucket of grapes. There are cut-out spaces for heads and hands. Touristy. Gimmicky. Hilarious.
Travel down the road.
A cemetery lined with red, white, and blue flags.
It seems almost festive, all that color and movement
Flags waving in the wind.
Follow the road and arrows pointing to the motel and
“Central Business District”
Our road and two others converge on the war memorial
A sculptured
Over-sized American eagle, bronzed and bedecked in stars
Sternly stares down Main St
The one-storey motel, ex-legion’s club, community hall, post office, bank, and
Church
All look on in respect.
Further east down the road
A meat-packing and processing facility is bordered by the drug store,
The grocery store sits opposite.
Neat houses with trim lawns and brightly colored pin wheels stand almost regimentally down the street.
West of the memorial -
The fire station/mayor’s office
And more houses
Beyond Main Street, the world is fields of green and metal silos.
The motel is currently staffed by an obese older man.
He breathes heavily. The manager is at the movies with her boyfriend.
He takes us down to our room.
Here you go. Leave that switch on, it’s connected to the fridge. Shower in there. We have cable. 450 channels. We have wifi, I think. Not sure how to work it. I don’t have a computer. Enjoy your stay.
He shuffles back down the hallway. The effort is immense.
We seek out dinner. The grocery store is closed. The manager has returned. Marin. She is Egyptian. How did she end up in Minden, Iowa?
Marin of Minden offers frozen dinners - Salisbury steak with corn and mash.
The hippies, formerly of Fort Collins, who have cooked farmer’s market meals seven days a week for the past six months, try not to recoil rudely in fear of microwave food stuffs.
One dollar only! I make no profit!
We smile. Thank you, but I’m a vegetarian.
She looks at me curiously, processing this foreign term, vegetarian.
Ah! I have olives! And crackers? It’s Sunday. Everything closed! But, gas station, just down the road!
Apologetic thank you’s, and we head back to the car.
I love you! Marin calls out.
I eat granola for dinner. Damn hippies!
In the morning, it’s back on the road.
Count the road kill. Count the religious billboards. Count the gas stations.
The big move east,
We’re on our way.
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Fort Collins. Photo by Tim O'Hara
I arrived in a snowstorm
The thermometer reading -10C (14F)
The trees were bare, the fields brown
I was stressed and tired and sick
From almost a year of waiting
To be with my love
And finally, I was here.
Once upon a time
People came to Colorado for healing
The mountain air prescribed as a curative for
Asthma and anxiety and neuroses of the soul.
After London, I needed healing.
Fort Collins was not in The Plan.
But providence/luck/fortune/life
Bought me here
And the rocky mountains did their job
Along with the kind souls encountered
Perhaps London was a dream. And Sydney another lifetime.
In just the past six months,
My love and I were married
I performed in my first Shakespeare
Priced row upon row of vintage books
Planted peas and potatoes and tiny slender leeks and
Harvested buckets full of greens
We played board games and card games and made sense of puzzles
We watched our way through seasons of HBO hits, and
While my love lectured on ethics
I cycled for miles, in sun, in rain, in snow, in biting cold and raging wind.
In the afternoons, I watched over a small human - my time here accounts for two-thirds of his entire life.
I wrote the first draft of my one person show
I borrowed books from the library and made ample use of their inter-library-loan program
Reading books from Wyoming and Oklahoma and Arkansas.
We found ourselves in a circle of friends
Caring and generous and kind and fun
What took two years in London
Took six months in Fort Collins.
It wasn't always easy. I couldn't work. Couldn't drive. Was restricted by extreme cold.
I had bouts of depression and couldn't access counseling services.
But I was with my love
And it was a wonderful adventure.
Now, new adventures await
And we must say goodbye
The college kids. Old Town. Cycling. The breweries. The canyon. The reservoir. The ‘A’ on the hill. Drip coffee. The eerie whoooooooo of the trains rumbling through town. Wolverine and Happy Heart. The Farmer's Market, Jodar Farms and Donoma Farms, The Cave Girl, Mt Everest and Youngs and the Chinese restaurant with the kids behind the counter. OpenStage and CSU and taichi and yoga. The library, the archives, the Poudre River, and the Spring Creek Trail. The park, the lake, running down wide streets.
An entire town is impossible to capture in list form.
We leave when the trees are full of green and
At the tail end of a “wild weather” week -
Thunder storms, and rivers ready to burst their banks, and the threat of tornados.
The sky provides a free light show on our final night, and eventually
It rains.
In the morning, we sweep the floors
Say goodbye to our first place together,
And close the door,
Giving thanks
That we have lived here.
The thermometer reading -10C (14F)
The trees were bare, the fields brown
I was stressed and tired and sick
From almost a year of waiting
To be with my love
And finally, I was here.
Once upon a time
People came to Colorado for healing
The mountain air prescribed as a curative for
Asthma and anxiety and neuroses of the soul.
After London, I needed healing.
Fort Collins was not in The Plan.
But providence/luck/fortune/life
Bought me here
And the rocky mountains did their job
Along with the kind souls encountered
Perhaps London was a dream. And Sydney another lifetime.
In just the past six months,
My love and I were married
I performed in my first Shakespeare
Priced row upon row of vintage books
Planted peas and potatoes and tiny slender leeks and
Harvested buckets full of greens
We played board games and card games and made sense of puzzles
We watched our way through seasons of HBO hits, and
While my love lectured on ethics
I cycled for miles, in sun, in rain, in snow, in biting cold and raging wind.
In the afternoons, I watched over a small human - my time here accounts for two-thirds of his entire life.
I wrote the first draft of my one person show
I borrowed books from the library and made ample use of their inter-library-loan program
Reading books from Wyoming and Oklahoma and Arkansas.
We found ourselves in a circle of friends
Caring and generous and kind and fun
What took two years in London
Took six months in Fort Collins.
It wasn't always easy. I couldn't work. Couldn't drive. Was restricted by extreme cold.
I had bouts of depression and couldn't access counseling services.
But I was with my love
And it was a wonderful adventure.
Now, new adventures await
And we must say goodbye
The college kids. Old Town. Cycling. The breweries. The canyon. The reservoir. The ‘A’ on the hill. Drip coffee. The eerie whoooooooo of the trains rumbling through town. Wolverine and Happy Heart. The Farmer's Market, Jodar Farms and Donoma Farms, The Cave Girl, Mt Everest and Youngs and the Chinese restaurant with the kids behind the counter. OpenStage and CSU and taichi and yoga. The library, the archives, the Poudre River, and the Spring Creek Trail. The park, the lake, running down wide streets.
An entire town is impossible to capture in list form.
We leave when the trees are full of green and
At the tail end of a “wild weather” week -
Thunder storms, and rivers ready to burst their banks, and the threat of tornados.
The sky provides a free light show on our final night, and eventually
It rains.
In the morning, we sweep the floors
Say goodbye to our first place together,
And close the door,
Giving thanks
That we have lived here.
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This weekend in Sydney, the University of New South Wales volunteer program “Yellow Shirts” celebrated its 25th anniversary. Yellow Shirts are a group of 100+ students who give up their time to help orientate new students, geographically, academically, and socially, arriving at UNSW. Orientation Week, or O-Week, is one of the largest programs of its kind, runs for a full five days from 9am til late, and is filled with activities from campus tours, to jumping castles and giant jenga to clubs and society events and live bands. Volunteers receive extensive training, and become a part of an amazing group of people once referred to as the “sunshine army”.
Seeing the images and stories from the anniversary pop up in my facebook feed made me nostalgic and strangely homesick. Memories of my four years as a Yellow Shirt volunteer pop up in fragmented fashion. Before living in America, before cutting off all my hair, before engagement, before world travel, there was uni, and there was Yellow Shirts.
Squads, OT, double squads, quadruple squad outings, the importance of FAFYing and CWEFLS, and never using terms and abbreviations that outsiders/newcomers wouldn’t understand. Running around late at night at training camp and accidentally bursting into a room where two Muslim volunteers were quietly praying. Rehearsing for the band in the Huts and heading up to the Rege for $5 steaks (before I was a vegetarian...) and card games. Sitting in Coffee Republic whilst the O-Week Coordinator consoled me, above and beyond her duties, because I hadn’t been selected as a squad leader - and how that year I was placed with one of the most amazing people I have ever encountered and how he changed the entire way I looked at leadership. The year it poured with rain and we moved everything inside the Roundhouse, and how one squad provided tarp-covered escorts up the Main Walkway for arriving students. The relationships that formed, the boys I fell in love with. The couples still together, the families born. One day soon there will be second-generation shirts...
Beyond the memories of those four years, reflecting this weekend has reminded me how much that time has shaped me as a person. My time at UNSW was marked by the height of my depression. One volunteer recruiting session, which lasted well into the night, saw me escaping out into the cool night air, and sitting sobbing at the top of main walkway and contemplating if I should just end everything. Despite the pain and grief I was suffering, I look back now and think of my world at UNSW as an extremely happy and productive one.
Volunteering gave me an immense number of skills, practical not only on a CV checklist but in the real world. Talking with strangers, engaging with people across cultures, and barriers of language and age, organizational skills, team work, leadership, problem solving, and event planning. These skills have allowed me to confidently venture out into the world, and directly led to paid employment in three different countries in a variety of fields, including theatre, sustainability, retail, teaching, and running my own business.
Being a Yellow Shirt led me to the Contact Coordinator role, a part-time paid position overseeing the running of an information and referral centre at the university - often referred to as the O-Week outside of O-Week. That job covered my rent and expenses whilst I finished my undergrad, and gave me the skills of managing a team of 100 student volunteers, and overseeing the success of a crucial student service at a time when student services were being reduced, or cut altogether, at universities across Australia.
Beyond the skills, the greatest part of volunteering was the people. Like-minded souls with similar interests, people who pushed my comfort zones and broadened my horizons. They opened my eyes to the world around me, taught me about leadership and teamwork, and the bounds of friendship. My fellow volunteers are among the most wonderful, creative, talented, and lovely folk I have ever encountered. They are now dotted around the globe, and have gone on to be come scientists, doctors, lawyers, analysts, economists, historians, writers, politicians, actors, musicians, journalists, mothers and fathers. I am a lucky soul indeed to be able to count them amongst my friends.
Since becoming a Yellow Shirt, I have volunteered in theaters, bookshops, and on farms. I have learnt to put my hand up for projects, and roles, where there is little or no monetary payment, that have gifted me with friendships, books, food, and impossible-to-price experiences.
I have often joked that working a day job allows me to pay for the experience of volunteering. Those countless volunteer hours, in a variety of programs, not only gave me tangible skills, and a degree, they undeniably shaped who I am. And for that, I am eternally grateful.
Seeing the images and stories from the anniversary pop up in my facebook feed made me nostalgic and strangely homesick. Memories of my four years as a Yellow Shirt volunteer pop up in fragmented fashion. Before living in America, before cutting off all my hair, before engagement, before world travel, there was uni, and there was Yellow Shirts.
Squads, OT, double squads, quadruple squad outings, the importance of FAFYing and CWEFLS, and never using terms and abbreviations that outsiders/newcomers wouldn’t understand. Running around late at night at training camp and accidentally bursting into a room where two Muslim volunteers were quietly praying. Rehearsing for the band in the Huts and heading up to the Rege for $5 steaks (before I was a vegetarian...) and card games. Sitting in Coffee Republic whilst the O-Week Coordinator consoled me, above and beyond her duties, because I hadn’t been selected as a squad leader - and how that year I was placed with one of the most amazing people I have ever encountered and how he changed the entire way I looked at leadership. The year it poured with rain and we moved everything inside the Roundhouse, and how one squad provided tarp-covered escorts up the Main Walkway for arriving students. The relationships that formed, the boys I fell in love with. The couples still together, the families born. One day soon there will be second-generation shirts...
Beyond the memories of those four years, reflecting this weekend has reminded me how much that time has shaped me as a person. My time at UNSW was marked by the height of my depression. One volunteer recruiting session, which lasted well into the night, saw me escaping out into the cool night air, and sitting sobbing at the top of main walkway and contemplating if I should just end everything. Despite the pain and grief I was suffering, I look back now and think of my world at UNSW as an extremely happy and productive one.
Volunteering gave me an immense number of skills, practical not only on a CV checklist but in the real world. Talking with strangers, engaging with people across cultures, and barriers of language and age, organizational skills, team work, leadership, problem solving, and event planning. These skills have allowed me to confidently venture out into the world, and directly led to paid employment in three different countries in a variety of fields, including theatre, sustainability, retail, teaching, and running my own business.
Being a Yellow Shirt led me to the Contact Coordinator role, a part-time paid position overseeing the running of an information and referral centre at the university - often referred to as the O-Week outside of O-Week. That job covered my rent and expenses whilst I finished my undergrad, and gave me the skills of managing a team of 100 student volunteers, and overseeing the success of a crucial student service at a time when student services were being reduced, or cut altogether, at universities across Australia.
Beyond the skills, the greatest part of volunteering was the people. Like-minded souls with similar interests, people who pushed my comfort zones and broadened my horizons. They opened my eyes to the world around me, taught me about leadership and teamwork, and the bounds of friendship. My fellow volunteers are among the most wonderful, creative, talented, and lovely folk I have ever encountered. They are now dotted around the globe, and have gone on to be come scientists, doctors, lawyers, analysts, economists, historians, writers, politicians, actors, musicians, journalists, mothers and fathers. I am a lucky soul indeed to be able to count them amongst my friends.
Since becoming a Yellow Shirt, I have volunteered in theaters, bookshops, and on farms. I have learnt to put my hand up for projects, and roles, where there is little or no monetary payment, that have gifted me with friendships, books, food, and impossible-to-price experiences.
I have often joked that working a day job allows me to pay for the experience of volunteering. Those countless volunteer hours, in a variety of programs, not only gave me tangible skills, and a degree, they undeniably shaped who I am. And for that, I am eternally grateful.
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View from the stupa (Shambala Mountain Center)
In the canyon
(It used to be “cañon”
From the Spanish
Meaning "tube")
Camp by the river
Tents and tables and a fire
Trees perched impossibly on the sides of cliffs
The smell of dead trees burning and the sight of white wispy
Ash.
Bald rocks with
Tufts of sprouting dry green hair in their crevices
Lichen covered rocks.
Water bubbles and froths
Around water-logged stones
Becoming more water
Coursing down the river
The sound of it
I want to jump in
Knowing it will be freezing
Snow melt
The breeze
Human stillness in the “quiet” of nature
A small black bird bathes in the shallows.
Someone has drawn a large neat spiral into the sandbank
Though the water has eaten the bottom half
Prints of dog paw
Haphazard, excited in the
Wet sand
Evidence of the tide
Golden flecks shimmer
Alluvial dust, fool’s gold
The sparkle of minerals
Restorative cold stone soup
A tiny bug on the paper
Too narrow for a tick
Let it wander
It meanders into the fold of the book
Once a tree
The infintessimal and the infinite
Drive up through the mountains
Wander down to the stupa
Wind and light
Quiet reflection
Write the names of those recently, and long ago,
Dearly departed
In the book in the temple
And hope that their names here
Will make their restless spirits peaceful.
Deer and chipmunks and impossible birds
Sit beneath shady trees and
Bright blue sky
Beside the rushing river
With friends and chatter and see
Human consciousness
Elevating towards love and light
Until the next big bang,
When the universe
Returns to the size of a pin
And the canyon
Is no more
The end.
(It used to be “cañon”
From the Spanish
Meaning "tube")
Camp by the river
Tents and tables and a fire
Trees perched impossibly on the sides of cliffs
The smell of dead trees burning and the sight of white wispy
Ash.
Bald rocks with
Tufts of sprouting dry green hair in their crevices
Lichen covered rocks.
Water bubbles and froths
Around water-logged stones
Becoming more water
Coursing down the river
The sound of it
I want to jump in
Knowing it will be freezing
Snow melt
The breeze
Human stillness in the “quiet” of nature
A small black bird bathes in the shallows.
Someone has drawn a large neat spiral into the sandbank
Though the water has eaten the bottom half
Prints of dog paw
Haphazard, excited in the
Wet sand
Evidence of the tide
Golden flecks shimmer
Alluvial dust, fool’s gold
The sparkle of minerals
Restorative cold stone soup
A tiny bug on the paper
Too narrow for a tick
Let it wander
It meanders into the fold of the book
Once a tree
The infintessimal and the infinite
Drive up through the mountains
Wander down to the stupa
Wind and light
Quiet reflection
Write the names of those recently, and long ago,
Dearly departed
In the book in the temple
And hope that their names here
Will make their restless spirits peaceful.
Deer and chipmunks and impossible birds
Sit beneath shady trees and
Bright blue sky
Beside the rushing river
With friends and chatter and see
Human consciousness
Elevating towards love and light
Until the next big bang,
When the universe
Returns to the size of a pin
And the canyon
Is no more
The end.