This post was supposed to go live on Friday, but a glitch meant it didn't publish. And then I got a message from my BMT doctor that my white blood cell count was a little high and I needed to have my blood work done again.

Cue epic relapse anxiety, imagining my imminent demise and wondering how long it would take to sort through all my (now) redundant stuff.

I did a bunch of cooking. I cleaned. I taught a lesson. I had the blood test. I went to work.

I was able to check the lab results online tonight, and the white blood cells are back in normal range. Phew! Imminent demise by stupid cancer is held off for another day.

Here's the original post from Friday. Thanks for the reminder, body...

I have a confession to make. For all the posts I make about being a cancer survivor, in the past few months it has been easy to “forget” that I was ever very close to death thanks to blood cancer. Almost three years post-transplant, after a long and difficult slog, I finally feel like my old healthy self.

Today I had a check-up appointment with the Sloan Kettering Survivorship Team. Chemo and radiation, along with early menopause, have put me at risk of osteoporosis so bone health will continue to be a part of my annual physical. I had blood tests and vitals checked (everything is looking good), and a bone density scan.

Unlike bone marrow biopsies, bone density scans are painless, quick and easy procedures. Despite being physically pain free, the testing brings up a lot of feelings. Oh, right. I was really sick and now it will affect me for the rest of my life.

Even “quick and easy” hospital visits take several hours. They’re draining, and bring up a lot of uncomfortable and downright distressing memories.

Unlike three years ago, Aaron doesn’t need to practically carry me home afterwards. This morning I ran a half marathon! And tonight I’m going to work! I’m doing SO. MUCH. BETTER.

I continue to be incredibly grateful to my team at Sloan Kettering. They saved my life, and continue to ensure I stay healthy. It feels so good to be giving back by running the NYC Marathon with Fred’s Team and raising money for leukemia research at Sloan Kettering.

Maybe one day the treatments for leukemia will not be so invasive and debilitating. Maybe one day the treatment will not put women into early menopause. Or put people at risk of secondary cancer. Perhaps we’ll be able to figure out what causes AML and prevent it all together.